I haven't run since I participated in the City2Surf. It's really starting to get me down.
Yes I have been sick, but now I am better, so now I just need to get back into it. I must admit I'm feeling a little bit scared, like I'm going to be back to square one. But then I need to remind myself that my goal was to be able to run 5kms without stopping, within a year. My deadline is March 2012, so I still have plenty of time.
I've been seeking motivation on line and I found this great quote:
It really sums it up for me. We, or maybe just I decide I want to do something and expect it to just happen. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to work hard at it, but I don't like disappointment. But then, who does?
I need to remind myself that I can be really successful at running, in fact I have been successful at this, I've run in 4 fun runs this year that have all been 10kms or more. So I will be successful, I know I just have to except that the course to success is not a straight line.
I've been making excuses, I know it, and I get angry with myself for doing it. I don't want to be this person. I want to get on with it, so what is holding me back?
The holidays here are drawing to an end today, we will be back to our usual routine tomorrow, no more excuses, I just need to do it.
I've been going to the gym, one of those 30 minute circuit work outs, but it doesn't have extended hours and sometimes I'm frustrated because I really want to work on my legs and the trainer will focus on other areas like my arms. I'm wondering if I should venture back to the normal gym where I pretty much just use the treadmill, at least I run at any time of the day or night (pretty much) and if I want extended training I could participate in the group training.
I'll probably sit on the fence on this one for a little while longer.
But anyway, I am going to accept that there will always be ebb and flow with this running gig. And that is OK.
Fingers crossed I can motivate myself this week, I know when I do it I will feel better for it!