At the moment, I’m feeling weak. I’m overwhelmed, which seems to be a reoccurring cycle for me.
I feel like I have too much going on in my schedule when deep down I know if I eliminated all the procrastinating I’d probably have all the time in the world.
When I’m mentally feeling lost, I tend to plonk myself in front of the computer and surf. Surf Facebook, Twitter. I could be spending time with my children, attending to things around the home or constructively writing blog posts. But mentally I don’t have it in me.
Why is this?
I know I’ve lost the ability to sit down and watch TV........ just relax.
I’ve lost the ability to sit down and read a magazine........ just relax.
It seems I don’t know how to have time out.
Over Easter I headed to Country NSW to visit friends, Rod could not come but I didn’t want to let that stop me. Off I went. Every single time I visit, not only these friends, but any of our country friends, I come home craving that lifestyle.
We spent most of the weekend chillin’ in the back yard watching the kids play, enjoying each others company. The neighbours dropped in to say hi. Simple......simply lovely.
But I know I don’t have to live in the country to have that lifestyle. The lifestyle I crave is one where as a family we have time out and relax, together.
So without sharing all the boring details, I’m going to make some changes to my planning.
I don’t want to plan anything during my weekend, other than enjoying life. OK I know I will need to cook to feed my family but beyond that, weekends need to be about ‘time out’.
To do this I need to stop procrastinating. I’ve ordered myself a diary and I’m going to use this to plan out my week. Sunday nights will be about weekly planning.
I need to ask myself, what do I need to achieve this week to relax this coming weekend?
No more running to the supermarket 5 times a week, no more buying takeout because we have no plans for dinner. No more chaos.
I often blame work for my disorganisation. It interferes with my personal life, it drains me emotionally because I’m not happy. But enough is enough. I have to let go, I need to stop wasting my energy wishing for something that is not going to be.
Glass half full.................
Good on you.
ReplyDeleteIt's not a nice feeling when the weekend draws to a close and you don't feel like you've had near enough down time/family time.
I hope these changes bring you a totally different feeling.
:-) xx
I think you have made great sense of what you feel and how life is and have a great plan to move forward - love the idea of really carving a line between weekdays and weekend - i am about 80% there myself if i can just get the SYL posts done by Friday instead of on the weekend LOL
ReplyDeleteThis is a great plan Mandy. I have been thinking about similar planning but am yet to put into action.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get your relaxing weekends, because they are definitely the ones to recharge your batteries for the week ahead.
all plans take time don't they. And then of course there's times where it's inevitable, like this Sunday when I have to go to work.
DeleteOhhhh Mandy, I hear you, and then in another way, I don't. IYKWIM?
ReplyDeleteIts your life, you are the only one to make the change, and often its just having the confidence to do it, but you are a powerful woman , wonderful mother and very talented, thats all you need! ox
Oh such a great idea! Good luck with your planning. I look forward to hearing how you go with YOUR weekends!
ReplyDeleteOh please let me know how you go with this. I too have trouble just relaxing. I used to love reading magazines but now can't sit still to enjoy it. I hate when I go to bed late after just mucking around on the internet but haven't achieved anything.such a challenge!
ReplyDeletemake sure to let us know how you travel with this - because i think it is something so many people can absolutely identify with! All i can really feel to say is - be kind to yourself. Change takes time, and you will get there,and you will do it, but please, please be kind to yourself in that journey x
ReplyDeleteI think it's great that you have identified what you need to make your priority. Remember to start slow...use your diary, then maybe do some meal planning (I've just started with that!) and then commit to whole weekends! Continue to share with us on your journey because I think many of us feel the same way and can hopefully be some support!
ReplyDeleteI set a similar goal to make Sundays our family day. We seem to have the relaxing part down pat, but need to inject some fun in there! 'Time out' and 'enjoyment' are the key factors! Fingers crossed for you. Sounds great!
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