At the moment, I’m feeling weak. I’m overwhelmed, which seems to be a reoccurring cycle for me.
I feel like I have too much going on in my schedule when deep down I know if I eliminated all the procrastinating I’d probably have all the time in the world.
When I’m mentally feeling lost, I tend to plonk myself in front of the computer and surf. Surf Facebook, Twitter. I could be spending time with my children, attending to things around the home or constructively writing blog posts. But mentally I don’t have it in me.
Why is this?
I know I’ve lost the ability to sit down and watch TV........ just relax.
I’ve lost the ability to sit down and read a magazine........ just relax.
It seems I don’t know how to have time out.
Over Easter I headed to Country NSW to visit friends, Rod could not come but I didn’t want to let that stop me. Off I went. Every single time I visit, not only these friends, but any of our country friends, I come home craving that lifestyle.
We spent most of the weekend chillin’ in the back yard watching the kids play, enjoying each others company. The neighbours dropped in to say hi. Simple......simply lovely.
But I know I don’t have to live in the country to have that lifestyle. The lifestyle I crave is one where as a family we have time out and relax, together.
So without sharing all the boring details, I’m going to make some changes to my planning.
I don’t want to plan anything during my weekend, other than enjoying life. OK I know I will need to cook to feed my family but beyond that, weekends need to be about ‘time out’.
To do this I need to stop procrastinating. I’ve ordered myself a diary and I’m going to use this to plan out my week. Sunday nights will be about weekly planning.
I need to ask myself, what do I need to achieve this week to relax this coming weekend?
No more running to the supermarket 5 times a week, no more buying takeout because we have no plans for dinner. No more chaos.
I often blame work for my disorganisation. It interferes with my personal life, it drains me emotionally because I’m not happy. But enough is enough. I have to let go, I need to stop wasting my energy wishing for something that is not going to be.
Glass half full.................
Linking up for the Simplify your Life Challenge