I am an introvert and I'm not fond of the stereotype.
I wish I could be outgoing, not worry about what other people thought of me, not question myself.
I hate the fact that I have inhibitions.
inhibitionsplural of in·hi·bi·tion (Noun)
I have a great ability to 'fake it' when it comes to my inhibitions. Not always, but often I can convince people I'm comfortable in my space, comfortable in my conversation. When all along hoping that I'll be liked, accepted.
Never are my inhibitions more obvious than when I am around a bunch of bloggers. Introvertedly watching relationships and friendships form. All the while standing around mute, struggling to find the words, the ability to join in conversation.
So why then do I throw myself into these environments?
I love blogging, I love the environment, I love the opportunity. It might take me a bit longer to meet people, it might take me a bit longer to build relationships, but I have all the time in the world, there is no deadline.
So why is it that when I am in a place where no one knows me, a place I can walk away from, I have the ability to find my release.
What am I talking about?
When I was on my honeymoon in Perth I wore bikini's. I wouldn't do that at home, but then in Perth no body knows me.
When I lived in England I went on a weekend away with the family I worked for. I had a free night and wanted to make the most of it. So I took myself off to a night club and and danced, all by myself. Didn't bother me, not like I'm going to be spending my days there anytime soon.
Why am I afraid of the consequence?
It's only the consequence of being myself.
Am I alone on this? Do you let your inhibitions control how you behave? And do they change if there are no consequences?
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