I long for the slower pace.
I long for the lazy mornings.
But it appears my kids didn't get the memo on 'slower pace' or 'lazy'.
I never thought I'd be the mother that said "I can't wait for school to start back"
But I feel like I am standing on the edge of the cliff, looking over, wondering should I jump, shouldn't I, silently hoping my foot will slip and I'll fall and someone else will sweep in and take over and make everything alright.
Maybe I need a break.... probably not.
Didn't I go away only last weekend?
A break doesn't fix things, it doesn't change what is going on in the home. You return and like a slap in the face reality sets in.
I feel like my kids are on over drive.
One is constantly nagging for food, the other is creating a crafting hurricane and the third one is generally going about trying to raz the rest of them up. Why?
I know my problems are trivial, but in reality that just makes it all the more worse. Why can't I control this situation if it's so trivial? Isn't it a matter of making beds, doing washing, playing with the kids?
In an attempt to get things under control I keep doing things based on the sense of urgency, but this means I'm pretty much chasing my tail.
I've tried going out as opposed to staying at home but it's a lose / lose situation. Nothing gets done when we're out, they create more work for me when I'm home.
Surely this phase has to pass, I know school will go back and the chaos will be over, but then the relentless routine will continue and I wonder will I ever get on top of things?
Mandy
I haven't got school-age kids but I often wonder whether I'll get on top of things. Ever? Maybe one day when I'm not so tired?
ReplyDeleteWhoever works out the solution is going to be a very wealthy person!
Please dont be so hard on yourself.You are doing all you can.Your heart is in the right place.
ReplyDeleteMine is all grown up now and I feel I did what you are trying to do ...constantly trying to get ontop of things.It is impossible.
Step back and enjoy the moments,as like you said it is never ending,so by trying to get ontop you will be forever trying to catch your tail.
It took me a while to realise it was more important to enjoy the moments than trying to keep everything in order all of the time.I put way too much pressure on myself.
Dont feel guilty for wanting school holidays to be over.You are only human and it doesnt mean you are any less than a great mum.You still deserve me time.
When school does go back and that relentless routine is there...make sure you fit some time in for yourself.You deserve it.
Happy mum means happy home.
Big understanding hugs.xx
Thank you.
DeleteOMG I am so there too!!! I pray for the silence when the kids and hubby go back to school!
ReplyDeleteSounds exactly like our house! haha
ReplyDeleteNagging for food and craft hurricane - this is my life right now too! I've only got one at school and I'm enjoying having the three of them home at the moment in the hols, but only because Miss E (5) been so fantastically helpful. When she gets her cranky on I start counting down the days.
ReplyDeleteIt's always reassuring to know I am not alone.
DeleteSounds like its the same for a lot of us! I have a little crafter who gets into all MY things (even though she has her own designated stuff), an ever bottomless pit with hollow legs and a 2 year old who is asserting his authority left, right & centre. It's absolute madness.
ReplyDeleteI have been forcing daytime rests which breaks the day up and lets me get a few things done, but it is never ending and my patience is wearing thin...
Hope things get a bit easier soon xx
Oh I know exactly what you're saying! I feel like I'm chasing my tail all the time... and I get frustrated because I don't get time to blog or do stuff I want to do! Washing, ironing, cooking, cleaning...it's endless and mundane!
ReplyDeleteHi Mandy love! You just described my life and I'm sure most other Mums too. You are not alone! My clan are all sick and cottage fever has well and truly set in. I just take it a day at a time and try to love the kids through the mess, snot and sleepless nights even though it's hard at times. I run a bath, lock the door, take in a glass of bubbly or something spesh and relax for 1/2 an hr by pretending Im in an exotic place. You are a wonderful Mum and even wonderful Mums get tired and need a break. We have been no where in the hols because of the lurgy and my house is a bomb shelter, but I still have my bathroom with a lock on the door!
ReplyDeleteYes it does seem we are all feeling it. And whilst I wouldn't wish it upon anyone, It does make me feel a little better to know my family is normal and not a bunch of fruit cakes. Although sometimes that is questionable ;)
DeleteYou are so not alone! I hate the constant piles of mess and crap that seem to accumulate around here! Just never getting on top of it!
ReplyDeleteI hope that school goes back and you get a moments peace before you have to start cleaning up after the holidays again!
Hi Mandy, I finally got to reply…sorry. I see that many have reassured you that you are not alone. It's the winter school holiday syndrome I think. Too much inside time = too much in each others' face, space and place. So, some ideas from me? You seem to have the right idea, catering for each child's likes/needs. What about alterative days (or parts of a day) where it's a free outside activity….one where they burn off energy and perhaps you get a coffee with a friend. It really can be done even when it's cold… yes it can! The other thing I know works well with inside days, is to make the inside activities like outdoor ones. I brought in an outside sand tray (empty) and put decorative pebbles (oh not to size your youngest can eat) in, and the kids play..sensory play is a great thing. Of course, alternating the types of things you do, and having a plan. YOU have the plan..you know the kids…not the other way around, because that's when it gets hard. I hope it feels better soon….Denyse
ReplyDeleteOh Miss Mandy, I hear ya! I do think these school holidays are the worst of the whole year. We pretty much hibernated last week and were feral by the end of it! Also, you have a 2 year old and I reckon that's one of the most challenging ages! Hang in there! Xx
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